You Always Hurt the Ones You Love

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You always hurt the one you love,
The one you shouldn’t hurt at all.
You always take the sweetest rose,
And crush it till the petals fall.
You always break the kindest heart,
With a hasty word you can’t recall.
So, if I broke your heart last night,
It’s because I love you most of all.

for Pompi

A simple life

“A simple life is not seeing how little we can get by with—that’s poverty—but how efficiently we can put first things first. . . . When you’re clear about your purpose and your priorities, you can painlessly discard whatever does not support these, whether it’s clutter in your cabinets or commitments on your calendar.” ~Victoria Moran

The Truth

The adventure of life is to LEARN.
The purpose of life is to GROW.
The nature of life is to CHANGE.
The challenge of life is to OVERCOME.
The essence of life is to CARE.
The opportunity of life is to SERVE.
The secret of life is to DARE.
The spice of life is to BEFRIEND.
The beauty of life is to GIVE.
The joy of life is to LOVE.

-William Arthur Ward

Toska & Saudade

The Russian word ‘Toska’  (in Russian - тоска) is a word that can not be accurately translated into English.  Vladimir Nabokov describes it as:   “No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pining, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody of something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui, boredom.”

I think the closest may be that of one of the most gorgeous words of any language, Saudade.  This Portuguese word also can not be translated, but refers to the feeling of a beautiful longing for something/someone that you love, but that is lost.

los pajaros

Te he pensado mucho y estas en medio del canto de los mas hermosos pajaros que en las mananas dan alegria a mi corazon.

Life

The adventure of life is to LEARN.
The purpose of life is to GROW.
The nature of life is to CHANGE.
The challenge of life is to OVERCOME.
The essence of life is to CARE.
The opportunity of life is to SERVE.
The secret of life is to DARE.
The spice of life is to BEFRIEND.
The beauty of life is to GIVE.
The joy of life is to LOVE.

-William Arthur Ward

The Poet

The poet is a faker
Who’s so good at his act
He even fakes the pain
Of pain he feels in fact.

– Fernando Pessoa

Note to self – improvement

Exactly one year ago I found myself in a sad place.  I was alone in Mexico City after a very trying and emotional day.  I decided to take myself out for dinner and while seated at the table I wrote myself the below letter.  Today after reading, I feel very proud of how far I have come in a year.  I highly recommend writing a note to self and sealing it for future reading.  It really shows you how much can change in one year (thankfully in my case – for the better).

Dear DL,

From where I stand today I can see that you are a good person with a great deal going for you – except you could be a lot happier if you adjusted a few debilatating ways of thiking:

1. You need more self respect – you need to establish principles of what you will accept and stick by them.  You let others control your emotions too much and they sometimes manipulate you because you appear weak, culpable and overly sensitive.

2.  You have to learn to count your blessings more than you do.  You have so much to be happy, thankful and grateful for, but you often get stuck on the negatives! Bad!

3.  You need goals – long and short term – you have gotten botter at this but don’t lose focus.

4.  You need stronger convictions.  You are too wishy-washy in your opinions or beliefs.  This is good because you are maliable, understanding and open-minded, but don’t let your lack of opinion get dominated by someone’s strong opinions;  just because they have one, doesn’t mean its right.

5.  Don’t get trapped in the pleasing other people or putting others ahead of yourself game again!  You are #1 and you do whats truly in your heart and what is best for you in your heart!

So Nice

 

Someone to hold me tight, that would be very nice

Someone to love me right, that would be very nice

Someone to understand, each little dream with me

Someone to take my hand, to be a team with me

So nice, life would be so nice, if one day I’d find someone who would take my hand and Samba though life with me.

Need

“… and I close my eyes, inhale, and feel a rush of heat and energy that takes my breath away.  It is the feeling of wanting something so much that it bordered on an actual need, and the power and urgency of this need overwhelms me.”